I am Love

I am the blanket that keeps you warm at night

 I am the soft kisses trickling down your spine

I am the very breath that gives you life

 I am the sweet honey that makes the stars shine

Without me your life would cease to exist

I am the twinkle glistening in your eyes

I am the chocolate thighs wrapped around your waste

I am the high that’s got you touching the skies

I am the sweetness that’s got you begging for a taste

Without me your life would cease to exist

Who am I?

Some call me the temptress of things most desired

Devil’s concubine may even come to mind

Some even blame me for getting them fired

I just want to help you unwind

But you can call me….

Love

The End

Like the flame to a candle our love became too much for him to handle

He was the wick and I was the flame burning deep into the soul of a man who wasn’t able

To commit to a life of monogamy let alone be the provider of something stable

See, for him life was a bowl of cherries just waiting to be popped

For him growing up was similar to pushing up daisies in an old cemetery plot

Trust was a fairytale and how to be a friend was something he had forgot

With every passing year the flame grew hotter and hotter while the wick withered away

Some say love is all you need but I say love is what made him run astray

And run he did. He ran and ran and is still running today

“Run Forest run”, is what I say because I’m not the one to try to keep anyone who doesn’t want to be kept

Just remember I was the first and there will never be another capable of giving you what you left

Poetry – Loves Journey

I used to think you were the one for me

I used to think together we would live so happily

You’ve proved me wrong more times than one

Still I couldn’t let go, we had hardly even begun

They all said we were perfect for each other

They all said we would be the ones to outlast all the others

They said

 

I used to think that love could conquer all

I used to think you would be the one to catch me if I fall

You’ve proved to be my best mistake yet

Still I couldn’t let go, I had to see how much further we could get

They all said he never got over you

They all said he wants to be the best for you

They said

 

I used to think I was your yin to your yang

I used to think I needed you to be able to do my thing

You’ve proved to me that your yang matches up with more than one yin

Still I couldn’t let go, not now and definitely not then

They all said maybe it’s time you thought about moving on

They all said how much longer can this go on

They said

 

I used to think I needed you to complete me

I used to think without you I could never be happy

I’ve proved I don’t need you any more than you need me

Still I couldn’t let go till I found the batteries

I said I don’t need you anyway

I said one day you’re going to pay

I said

Poetry – If She

So ashamed of her past she tried real hard to correct it

In a letter to Him she begs and pleads for forgiveness

If she sets back the clock, maybe she can erase it

If she had never said yes, maybe she could have prevented this mess

This incredibly f’d up bullshit that she’s created

Not that “reality” crap that’s become the world’s fetish

If she kept her legs shut maybe then she could fake it

If she just had a genie maybe he could grant her this one wish

Turn back the hands of time when life was less complicated

Make everything all right for her and no one else

If she could she would change every last minute

Take some time for herself and give everyone else much less

If she could go to back when then she would never be tempted

Call it what you will but then again, I’m just selfish

Think About it

Have you ever wondered why your ex  was a psycho? Or why you freak out at the sound of a closed door? Could it be the result of a disfunctional relationship with your parents?  Maybe you had a traumatic experience with an ex-boyfriend/girlfriend. The next time you get upset at your significant other stop for a moment and think:  What, When, Why, and How?  What made them do what they did?  When did it happen?  Why did it happen? How did it affect them and how will it affect you?  There’s two sides to every story.

Cupid Beat Me Up

Can one truly expect to be happy if she consumes herself with pleasing others before herself?  Is it okay to want your family to be whole again but just not with the one who helped you create it?  Love doesn’t make these choices very easy for anyone but it wouldn’t be called love if it came easy.  Sometimes we fall in love with the idea of love instead of the actual person, which always leads to an unhappy ending.  But how do we know that’s what we are doing when we are doing it?  Who should we depend on to hold up the white flag and say, “Time Out”.  Surely, there has got to be someone else responsible for the idiotic mistakes we make throughout life.  Obviously, we humans are merely innocent bystanders being strung along by the master pupeteer. 

I was one of those puppets.  I fell in love with the idea of love because it fit into my master plan.  Keyword:  “my”.  No one told me that my life was not in my own hands but that He had complete control over it.  So while I was trying to complete everything in my 5 year post highschool plan, He was steady waiting on me to let go and let God.  Well it’s taken me 10 years to get to that point.  Ever since highschool I’ve been trying to find someone like the love of my life.  Now I’ve finally decided to stop running from him (the love of my life) and just let things fall into place like they are supposed to.  I’ve made up my mind to stop planning that wedding I’ve always wanted but never had.  I’ve made up my mind to stop trying to push true love away and just embrace it.  Unfortunately, this enlightenment has caused me to hurt another as well and I am truly sorry.  I wish that he could understand. Perhaps one day he will.

HeartBreaker in Need of Advice

So “honesty”, it’s that thing where you’re not supposed to tell any mistruths.  Honesty and relationships don’t always go hand in hand.  How can you tell your significant other that the reason you’re breaking up with him is because you don’t feel any sparks when he kisses you?  How can you stay with someone if you have to force yourself to do something as simple as hug them?  In my opinion, you shouldn’t stay in a relationship like that.  It’s not fair to you or the person your’e with.  Unfortunately, the person being hurt doesn’t always see things that way.  As far as they are concerned you have just broken their heart and you can burn in hell for all they care. So for now, I’ll be the monster. 

Yes, I broke his heart because mine belongs to someone else and probably always has.  I broke his heart because I don’t want to settle anymore.  I broke his heart because I’m putting myself first for a change.  I broke his heart because I just want to be happy. 

When you love someone, even if they don’t love you back, shouldn’t you want that person to be happy?  Any takers, out there???